Kind of like when you sense things have gone full circle from where you were and where you are, and you're revisiting a feeling you've once felt before?
It's nothing about guilt, shame, fear, or pain. We drown in these emotions no matter how hard we try to pull ourselves out. It's not about that. There's no room for that here.
I'm talking strictly about good lovin' feelings. It's a familiar sense of calmness, confidence, acceptance, and self-assurance. Except this time around--you wouldn't for a second take any of this for granted.
I came up with a thought just a couple days ago at some random time. I'm actually not even quite sure why I came up with it or why it made enough of an impression on me to remember it.
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You 'now' is the only thing standing between who you were and who you want to be.
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I recently went hiking up a mountain with some of my closest friends on earth. We hiked up for 3.0 miles along a trail that was painted by repeating dirt and rubble. Every turning zig-zag path was familiar to the previous and the one after. The sharp pains running up our legs became familiar to us after every gripping advance. But what's strange is that after every step we took, the familiar became something far from it. But why? It's because even though the landscape and our threshhold for pain stayed unchanged throughout, we...the 'now', changed by the second.
So, my friends, no matter how many times in my life I revisit that very trail, my feelings wouldn't have changed one bit. But I would have; and that's enough reason to never for a second take it for granted.
Until you actually experience it, it's hard to truly understand what people mean when they say "Life works in strange ways". Shoot, maybe I haven't even begun to graze across the surface of what other people mean when they say it. I could be far off from the truth. But at least it feels right to say it now.
Life, indeed, works in strange ways.
